Facing the difficulties

I am really tired to push myself to do the things that I should do rather than doing the things that I shouldn't. But but and but, recently, my laziness win again and again! Juara bertahan sejak zaman purba gitu. sigh~ 
Sometimes I hate myself cause I can't even fight the malasness bah. 
I'm really bored for what I aim for. I'm really bored to finish my study. I'm really bored live with the people that really make me insane!
If I have an option, I maybe chose to live with the Alien. If the UFO thingy was true, I'll run myself to them. So what lah? Maybe It is better to live with the alien kan? hurmm
Yes, I realize that why people said that "when I was a kid I really wanted to grow up faster, but when I grow up I wish I can back in time when I was a kid" fuhh! Too many too many problems bah. If I can erase all the problem just like erasing the dust. Huh how I wish! This 2010 been the hard years for me. Well, I'm not going to flashback all the bad memories, all the stupid mistakes, all the things that just BIKIN PANAS but when I'm trying to move on there's always another will came up. I'm sick of everything that make me naik bengang! I can't help myself.
I wonder why we can't turn the bad to worse to the people who deserve it? No matter what is your relation towards  that person?  If that person deserve the punishment then why we could not do that? 
I always think that, why we can't be jahat sejahat-jahatnya to the person that really doing the bad things ever? 


I am ready to face all the obstacles, but never thought that I was this weak to handle everything. I will not pray to God to take away all this, instead of praying for a strength to keep me walking alive. Amen.