when the rollercoaster goes down and can't goes up

When life treat you like you're the bad creatures in this earth, curse you in any kind of way, stab you at the back, punch you right at your face that you lost all your teeth and all you can do is sitting in the very dark corner in your room with a non-stop tears and no one come for helps nor comforting you. That time you become a loner who live with a strangers that glance you as if you're the criminal who kills their Brother,Sister,Father or Mother. Everybody hates you and starting throw a stone towards you and that time you decide to jump off the bridge but amazingly safe and didn't die and people hates you cause their wish you to be dead. Laying at the hospital and no one come for a visit and that time your brain couldn't work, there's no heartbeat, your eyes not blinking you thought you dead but actually your soul is dead but not your body. You're still alive and can't survive.

Somehow, for some reason, for the sake of your life you have to survive on your own and it's your choice to give up.